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Love through Deployment and Back A blog of stories and feelings, while my soldier is deployed Me & Him tall, blonde, Canadian, dancer, world traveler, procrastinator, friend, nervous, awkward, self conscious, serious sweet tooth, scaredie cat, adrenaline junkie, mover and a shaker always rushing, usually late short hair, brown eyes, Canadian, smarty pants, adventurer, calm, collected, sharp shooter, serious sweet tooth, runner, adrenaline junkie, sci-fi-er never rushing, always on time My Likes my dog, music, tea, scarves, travelling, driving, ukrainian dancing, sweaters, MUSE, red heads, raspberry drops, extreme sports, Coldplay, laughing, taking pictures, tattoos, the mountains, picnics, climbing trees, lip chap, my plaid backpack, Neapolitan ice cream, black pens, snowball fights, birds, mix tapes, Canada, marmalade, farming, clothes, bluebird days, Queens of the Stone Age, colouring, reading, Biology, velvet wallpaper, cupcakes, dressing up, fresh baked bread, pointe shoes, Pink Floyd, sunshine, swinging, running, Led Zeppelin, vintage anything, classical music, concerts, playing flute, snowboarding, dirt biking, history, hockey, dinners, winter, frost on the windows, motor X, my vans, skateboarding, star gazing, flying kites, BOYS, walking, hiking, watching clouds, soup, thunderstorms, when people smell good, pie, fresh fruit, seeing new places, cherries, the colour lime, orange juice with lots of pulp, the ocean, Baba’s food, horseback riding, hugs The simple things in life Twitter It Up Tweets by @MissFildes links .Twitter .crapneto zebra.paperclip .frends .bogus .last.fm .5050bmx blog .surfrider foundation .etiquette for a lady link it up archives December 2005 August 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 April 2007 August 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 May 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 June 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 July 2012 August 2012 February 2013 March 2013 July 2013 August 2013 December 2013 December 2014 credits layout designer: eloquent layout manipulator: me, using what knowledge I have of html |
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date: Tuesday, February 28, 2012
title: Teaching
time: 11:54 am
I realized last friday when I went to watch my instructor teach up in St. Paul that being a dance instructor is a huge responsibility. The thought hadn't really sunk in until I watched his classes. I love teaching my 5 year olds, they are so much fun and teaching the fundamentals to them is something that I can handle. My technique class is easy, just have to watch them and change little things and teach them an easier way or a different technique. To watch them grow as dancers just over the last couple of months has been hugely rewarding. One of the moms came up to me last night to thank me for what a great job I was doing. I can't wait to watch them dance on stage and explore and love dance like I do. I love this and that much I can handle. Right now I can't train kids to dance and to learn how at an age where they need proper instruction. I am still growing and learning as a dancer myself. I can pass down what I know, but I can't teach. I want to be a positive influence as an instructor in their lives. I can't wait to see what our technique class brings in the fall! They have so many performances lined up for this summer and into the next dance year =)Keep your toes pointed xoxo date: Monday, February 27, 2012
title: monday
time: 5:29 pm
Monday so far:cranky people slow cute baby visit paperwoooooorrrrrkkkkk cute shoes handsome guys holding the doors open for me vegetable soup with my roommate Please tell me that tuesday will be better.... xoxo date: Friday, February 24, 2012
title: Compliments
time: 10:55 am
After a late night text, I realized that he had given me one of the nicest compliments I have ever received.I have a couple that have stuck around in my memory: -Luke mentioned one day that I had one of the nicest smiles he had ever seen, as well as the nicest teeth. -A stranger came up to me after a dance performance and told me that I was the only dancer she was able to watch on stage because I was captivating. -He told me last night "After getting fucked over by Jenn, you have no idea how incredible you really are. And I took you for granted." I am sure that there have been others, but these are the couple that have stuck with me. xoxo date: Thursday, February 23, 2012
title: And again...
time: 10:33 am
starting time: 10:16 Name: Alanna sisters: zero brothers: uno Eye Color: blue/grey/green Shoe size: eight-ish or eight and one half Height: 5'9" What are you wearing right now? super cute under wear, black shirt, jeans and flats Where do you live? in a basement suite Favorite Number: 14 Favorite Drink: Mountain Dew Favorite Month: don't have a favourite Favorite Breakfast: eggs benedict ***********Have You Ever*********** Broken a bone: Yes Been in a police car: Yes, but it was the front seat, not lying Been on a plane: Yes Been in a hot tub: Yes Swam in the ocean: Yes, although it was a very cold ocean Fallen asleep in school: probably during chem 30 Broken someone’s heart: Yes Cried when someone died?: Yes Fell off your chair: Yes, and if a hamock counts then almost every summer Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Sure have, it was pathetic Saved e-mails: Yes, I still have all the emails that my parents sent me while I was in Ukraine. Been cheated on: Yes ***********What is************ Your room like? egg shell brown, beige carpet(with some super weird stains...), art on the walls, purple curtains Whats right beside you? My desk at work and all of its contents What is the last thing you ate? Raspberry yoghurt ———————-Ever Had- ———————— Chicken pox: Yes Sore throat: Most definitely Stitches: Yes, and my head glued back together Broken nose: Potentially ————————-Do You————————– Believe in love at first sight? Almost Like picnics: Always ————————–Who————————— Did you last yell at? I might have snaped a bit at my mom, but I haven't yelled at anyone in a while Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? Both, contacts or glasses depending on the day Who was the last person you danced with: If you want to be technical, it was Loren, but that was dance class. Who last made you smile? Sara and Stacie ———-Final Questions————- What are you listening to right now? French Navy by Camera Obscura What did you do today? slept through my alarm clock(again), fixed my hair, rushed to work, killed it cause I was early =) and now I am procrastinating Hate someone in your family? No Good singer: Nope nope, sing all the time though Diamond or pearl? Pearls Are you the oldest?: Yes Indoors or out doors? I really do enjoy the outdoors ——————Today did you——————— 1. Talk to someone you like? Yes 2. Kiss anyone? Not yet 3. Get sick? Nope 4. Sing: Yes, during the drive to work 5. Talk to an ex? Yes 6. Miss someone: Sure do 7. Eat: Kinda sorta —————-Last person who————— 8. You talked to on the phone? My mum 9. Made you Cry? Jimmy 10. Went to the movies with? Jordan 11. You went to the mall with? Mum ——————Have you—————— 19. Been to Mexico? No 20. Been to Canada? Currently in Canada ——————-Random——————– 21. Had a crush on someone: Yes 22. What books are you reading right now: East of Eden 23. Best feeling in the world: Laying in the grass on a sunny july afternoon 24. Future kids names: Declan and Sidonie 25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Nope 26. What’s under your bed: Storage 27. Favorite sport(s) to watch: bmx, motor x, snowboarding, skateboarding, rally racing 28. Favorite location: Right now, Tofino -Long Beach 32. Who do you really hate? Hate is too strong a word 33. Do you have a job? Yes 35. Ever liked someone you didn’t have a chance with? Yes 36. You lonely right now? Kinda 37. Have you ever been in love but it wasn't the right time? Yes 38. Have you ever been scared to tell someone you love them? Yes 39. What are your biggest fears? the future, death, aliens, bugs, the dark, embarrassing myself 40.what time is it? 10:31 I like all the missing numbers =) date:
title: Eye candy
time: 8:38 am
Holy smokes, have you seen the new Gillette commercial?Well if that answer was no, then follow the link and enjoy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cZH861tZhs I do oh so love some eye candy. xoxo date:
title: This isn't everything that you are
time: 8:33 am
You can't find the phone, so you can call it off But it might be for the best You can't walk away, anyway Cause you've nowhere else to go Is he worth all this, is it a simple yes? Cause if you have to think, it's fucked Feels like you loved him more, than he loved you And you wish you'd never met Don't keel over now Don't keel over Don't keel over now Don't keel over You've been up all night, and the night before You've lost count of drinks and time And your friends keep calling, worried sick There's strangers everywhere Don't keel over now Don't keel over Don't keel over now Don't keel over And in one little moment It all implodes This isn't everything you are Breathe deeply in the silence No sudden moves This isn't everything you are Just take the hand that's offered And hold on tight This isn't everything you are -Look it up and listen, fell in love listening during the drive to work this morning xoxo date: Tuesday, February 21, 2012
title: simple things
time: 11:30 pm
simples things, such as:-feeling wanted -compassion -sensuality -the way my hair stands up on the back of my neck -no expectations -freckles -tangled sheets -comfort -friendship -flushed skin -deep breaths xoxo date: Sunday, February 19, 2012
title: thinking
time: 1:02 pm
Thoughts that were thought:Yes, this may sound a bit "Black Swan-esque", but in reality who else has two solos in Hopak? Just Mason, Adam and myself. One girl with two very talented boys, hate all you want but I've worked hard and still do. It's not my fault if someone likes me, I am who I am. I am sharp and sarcastic and vulgar and loud and kind and honest and smiling and goofy. I don't fake this. Also, yes I do like getting my way. I probably put too much sugar in my coffee in the morning. Bad habit... Crate & Barrel is my absolutely favourite store. I can't wait to have my own home with kitchen space and decorating potential. Pinterest is also assisting with the home ideas. So much time spent there... Speaking of house, I really need to clean... Apparently I am the only one capable of such things... Oh god I love the way you smell. I can see the resemblance between me and both of my parents more and more each day. Bit scary but they are both such great people. I really need to learn how to say no. Fuck, I have to go choreograph a dance in an hour. So many ideas... I really need a second coffee travel mug. I continually leave mine at work and what good does it do me there? I am soooooo excited to see what dance brings next! He has so many ideas and goals, I just can't wait. I haven't loved dance this much since I was little. On the dance note, why can't I have had a body that was built for my one and only passion? So many things are in between me and my goal. Also according to my coffee pot, I am on my 6th cup of coffee this morning/afternoon. I really want to paint a picture for my kitchen table area. I have these fabulous burgundy/deep red velvet chairs and I think poppies, which just happen to be my favourite flower, would be a perfect match. Now I just have to find the creativity. date: Friday, February 17, 2012
title: Fancy
time: 9:14 pm
I wish we said “fancy”. As in, “I fancy you.” It’s such a more agreeable term than “I have a crush on you.” What’s a crush? Like, I AM A BOA CONSTRICTOR AND I AM GOING TO IMMOBILIZE YOU WITH MY MISPLACED AND OBSESSIVE AFFECTION. “I fancy you” is like, you’re so shiny and glittery and I just want to put you on a shelf and look at you for a while ‘cause you’re fancy.
xoxo date: Thursday, February 16, 2012
title: Patience
time: 10:23 pm
It is hard to come to the conclusion that as much as you think you know someone, you never actually will. We are constantly evolving, changing, growing. I look back on the last year and so much has changed. So much has changed me as a person, how I see things, how I deal with people, who I am inside. I'm not sure who I am anymore, I seem to have lost track of myself. Just wandering through life, not actually there.I look back on conversations with him and I can see the differences; how we think, what we want, who we are. But looking forward to conversations with new people, there are personalities out there that don't clash as much. More similarities. And as much as I am trying to grab hold of myself again and figure everything out, there is lots of possibilities out there. One must just search. But patience is definitely not my virtue. date: Monday, February 06, 2012
title: The heart is hard to find
time: 7:53 pm
How come the heart can cause such hurt?To my feelings, my pride, to my confidence, my self esteem... It makes it hard to stand back up on your two feet and take on the world again. To put your heart back on the line, back out there for everyone else to see. But to have the confidence to put it out there in the first place showed that I was stronger than I thought that I was. Might have a rock for a heart, but I still have feelings. And I had almost forgot what it felt like to have them crushed. If you need some ice to cool your drink, just let me know and I will chip some off my heart for you. xoxo |